Friday, January 18, 2013
No bruises as yet but last night I could not sleep on my favorite side.
Whenever I bang my head on something I ask myself "what was I thinking at the precise moment it happened- was I having critical or mean or jealous thoughts?"
Yes, sometimes I find a culprit and start thinking negative thoughts about that person and the wheel in my head spins and releases the same thoughts over and over again until some other thought or a hit on my head appears and stops the whirl. Yesterday I was not having any hard thoughts and no negative thinking needed to be stopped but, simply asking myself the question leads me usually, as it did this time, to reflect on my opinions and fixed ideas concerning others in general. I do not want to and try not to pass negative judgement on others. As I write this I am thinking of lazy, greedy, untidy, ill-mannered, selfish.