Friday, January 16, 2015
I feel very blessed and am much surprised reading your comments here and thank you all, Tom, Halle, Rouchswalwe, Marja-Leena, Lucy, Sabine, Roderick R and Natalie, for your kind words.
Why surprised? Because when I want to know if one of you has posted anything new I click on your blog. I did not expect all of you dear friends to click on my blog to see if there is something new to read after I mentioned 'end of posting and commenting'.
I have been feeling very fatigued and melancholic for a while now and very much in need of receiving. I don't feel the strong woman.
This new need of mine feels very strange to me. I don't know what name to give it. Is it need for help, appreciation, encouragement, gestures, words, love?
Maybe I do get it all but don't feel it, nor see it, nor hear it.
Is this need caused by the fact that a big 'O' is around the corner or is it health related? I have been told that the count of "I forgot what" in my blood has been low for too long and have been referred to a specialist whom I'll see next week.
Today was better than yesterday - I'm on the way to improved tomorrows.
I do follow your blogs and also
Je suis (for the verb suivre) Charlie